To a girl I know (knew) - I'm trying to understand

there's so many things i would like to tell you.
there's even more that i would like you to tell me.
...whether or not this ever happens, i still care.

this post used to name the girl to which it refers, but as of November 15th 2008, i cannot think of any less than 6 total girls who this thought could be addressed to. so it seems that the post should be broadened. sometimes i feel like i should give up "trying to understand"... aren't a half-dozen times through this ordeal enough to wear me out? i do still care, but please don't fault me for saying that i am just a man, and this is starting to take a toll. please don't bring me to the point where i feel that honesty and authenticity are better avoided than sought. please, instead remind me that putting another's needs above one's own is still a worthwhile goal in this world.