it felt good

i finally got to share some thoughts at DR last night. man it felt great, just to get some of my views off my chest, so people could just react. i almost didn't care how anyone reacted...just that they reacted. or really just that they'd engage, and that i myself would engage, something new for a change. and honestly, i think it did go well. i received way more positive feedback than i thought i might get. and the folks who i thought might have the most severely rocked boats all said that they'd like to talk more about the Kingdom...and that is the EXACT response that i was hoping for. the one thing that i wish i could have done was gone deeper into answering the question "what is the Kingdom?". but if i would have taken the time to really delve into that issue, my "talk" would have been more a "lecture", and that's not a good thing for DR. plus, it hits me today, that i'm still asking that same question today, and the people who followed JC from town to town were probably asking that question over and over, never to get the precise answer that they anxiously hoped for. in fact, i probably speculated more details in one night that He revealed in His entire career. the best you could ever get from Him on this subject was "the Kingdom is LIKE...". He compared it to this and that, but never defined it or simplified it. i often wonder why He did that. but maybe that's plan, because wonder becomes curiosity, and curiosity becomes fascination...and here i am, starving for more of this Kingdom-living stuff. it feels so right, because i can live in the part that i understand, and then pursue understanding of the parts that i don't. i hope others will capitalize on the same opportunity. i know that the coming weeks and the varied reactions within them will be a litmus test for me and DR. i really really just hope that people will think, and talk, and consider, rather than ignore or dismiss. just a consideration is capable of growing into a fascination. so will i be involved with group much longer? i'd like to be, but i honestly don't know. here's hoping...for the best.