a thanksgiving resolution (almost)

man, it's been exactly a month since my last post. i'm really not using this blog thing to its utmost potential, am i? several things over this thanksgiving weekend reminded me that i need to be more intentional about chronicling my thoughts, my goals, and my memories. so i'm gonna give it a serious go here. no more waiting for something profound to say (i know i've said this before). supposedly (my friends say), it's quite therapeutic to just type...even to type anything at all. so i hope they're right, because that's what i'm gonna try to do - just type.

i'm so ready to move out of my parents house! why does carpet take so long to deliver? i mean this is getting ridiculous. not to suggest that i haven't had a blast with my folks over the last couple months. but it's time to move on. i can't watch my mom watch QVC, or listen to its mindless meaningless advertising from the other room, ANYMORE. and i can't watch my dad complain about my mom's QVC-fetish and then offer no alternative ideas other than watching [Nobody Loves] Raymond or going to the boat to gamble. i love 'em both to death...i really do. i just wish something else could get them excited, and eventually active. but then again, maybe i'm no one to talk. i'm not exactly mr. social butterfly or mr. change the world as of late, due to a variety of things (but all of them boiling down to my indecision, or more honestly, my laziness). i think living in this house again has both fostered my laziness by giving it a multitude of sedentary lifestly options, and challenged it by frustrating me into conviction and confidence that the world is my oyster (yada yada). but both influences are very real, even though they're completely opposite.

in other random news, i just finished the book "Till We Have Faces", and it has utterly shredded me from the inside out. i dare anyone to read this book with an open heart and mind, and i say dare because i'd only recommend it to people who really want to see their own bitterness, jealousy, near-sightedness, and self-absortion laid out before them. i was completely undone by the time i flipped over the last page. i now need to spend some time working through all this stuff that i discovered about myself. here's hoping it goes well. pray for me....seriously....i need it.