my apologies

sorry everybody. i've been so caught up in random obligations and interests, i've forgotten to add anything on here. it's been almost a month. forgive my forgetfulness...i'm sure i'll get more consistent as i go along. at least i hope so.

well anyway, life consists of transitions and the anticipation of more transitions at the moment. and that's ok, i guess. it's just that life has never felt more "up in the air". i'm moving out of this house on thursday, because my roommate's about to get married. and it seems like all my friends are getting married, and i'm just getting more and more confused by the female species with each passing day. so yeah, i'm moving out, and into my parent's house. it's not a bad deal...free food, no rent, get to hang with Rocky (who's the greatest dog EVER), can do some fun stuff with the folks, and it's only for a month. they're even gonna pay me to move bags and boxes around. i'll need the change b/c this week is my last week at Puck's hellhole, thank God. that place...i mean i love the people, but the restaurant is the epitome of the overpromising, underdelivering fancy joint that is trying earn five stars but can't even live up to its creator's goofball name. anyway - 2 more days there and i'm, once again, unemployed. but hopefully by november i'll be moving in with my buddy casey, another transition, this time to south st.louis city. should be interesting. i'd really like to work at a bookstore down there, mostly so i can read and reduce my own book pile while i work. actually i'm really stoked to live with casey. a very cool guy, enjoys a deep conversation, can play a damn good game of chess, and asks me crazy questions like "nate, what are you lacking?" he asked me that last week, and just the thought-process that it elicited was humbling. more questions like that will be good for me.

with that, you're more or less caught up with the externals...i'll spill some guts and do the internal thing next time. right now i need some sleep - tomorrow's to-dos include the "change of address" protocol and some packing...so, goodnight.

lessons from my internet

so 30 mintues ago i completed what would be my first legitimate post, if it had gone through. it was a long a detailed boast about my parents and how cool they are. i really thought my writing was touching and witty, too. like i really thought that. anyway, i'm about to post it, when the screen tells me my session is timed out...then i accidentally hit <-- and i lose everything that i had just typed. i was definitely shouting at my computer (an inanimate object) for several minutes. after i got over my anger and self-condemnation, i had an unlikely epiphany:

maybe this is my internet telling me that people don't want to read long and overly detailed blogs. especially not the ones written by people who are impressed by their own writing. thank you world wide web, for humbling me where i clearly needed some help. however, my parents still deserve some props...so here's my (severely) shortened version of the post that didn't quite make it online.

my mom is foolishly generous. today she bought me a WAY overpriced book simply because "i know you like this author". it's second nature for her to do things like that. but i wanna be like that when i "grow up".
my dad just makes me smile, just by being a goofball and freeing me up to be a goofball around him. we watched the best of will ferrell dvd tonight, and cried like little girls as we laughed. i'm just thankful that our pants stayed dry, with as much as we feed off each other's laughter.

mom and dad, i love you guys. you two are way cool. hopefully i'll remember to say that more often. my advice of the night = throw some thankfulness upwards for those that love you well down here.